Post by black on Aug 30, 2007 20:03:57 GMT -6
--I had gotten back to my hotel room late around 2:30 A.M. after spending some questionable hours at the house of Amanda, the girl I had met at the bar. After a night of sleep I got up, took a shower and got dressed. Before heading out the door I decided to get on my laptop to read some wrestling news. I was interested in seeing if any of my opponents had finally come out and spoken a word or two. I was not let down. "The Dark One" Shadow had finally spoken up. I watch the video clip of Shadow's promo as it was captured and placed on-line. Shadow's words struck my nerve but only a little. I needed to do some thinking. I needed to clear my head and get my mind on what was at hand. A contendership for the T.V. Title.
I left my hotel room and got into my black Mitsubishi L200. I took a drive down to a near by creek. It was calm, peaceful and quiet. Just enough to get the brain functioning easily. I knelt down at the edge of the creek but refused to look at the water. With the cameras on me as it seems always when I'm out, I decided now was a good time to spread a few more words for my match.--
Blackheart: You know I dreamed last night. Something I haven't done in a really long time. Or maybe I just could never remember them because I was so stressed and concerned about other stuff. In my dreams it was like I was at a theater and the movie rolling. Was myself. It was like I left my body and was watching myself. What I was seeing looked like a mess. I was a mess. I saw myself hearing voices. I saw myself as Brian Lee. I saw myself as Oni. You know what else I saw. I saw the beating I got from Shadow. I guess that's why when I saw the video today on-line of his comments it struck a nerve.
I realized though I am not angry at Shadow. Heck I also realized after watching Shadow's promo that I am not even really angry at Jason Resurrection. I am really angry at myself. The only way to get rid of that anger is to do some cleaning. I am man enough to admit that I let Shadow down. I did the same thing to him as Jason did to me. I am also man enough to admit that Shadow punished me severely for betraying him. And I have those same intentions for Jason. I haven't forgotten not once though that there is Shadow in the match and there is Scott Lanegan in the match.
So like I said it's time to do some cleaning. August 31st is a new day a new match. Things that happened before with Shadow will not happen again I promise that. Because what's at stake here is important to me. I want that contendership. In my dream I saw that I could never really look my opponents in their eyes with confidence. It's different now though and it's going to be different from here on out. So I know Shadow likes to call himself "The Dark One". He's sadistic, maybe even mad. Well same can definitely be said about Blackheart. I am not going to say it though I am going to prove it. Because in this match no matter who tries to stop me, I am going to get medieval on someone and someones asses.
--I took a deep look into the cameras as if I were staring at my opponents right there in front of me. Staring them deep in their eyes.--
Blackheart: And Blackheart doesn't make idle threats.
--With my last words spoken I tossed a rock into the creek. I finally took a look into the waters and waited for the ripples to clear. When they did I stared at the reflection. I didn't see Oni, I didn't see Brian Lee or any other personalities. I saw myself. For the first time in a long time I saw myself. I nodded in approval and stood back up to exit the scene.--
I left my hotel room and got into my black Mitsubishi L200. I took a drive down to a near by creek. It was calm, peaceful and quiet. Just enough to get the brain functioning easily. I knelt down at the edge of the creek but refused to look at the water. With the cameras on me as it seems always when I'm out, I decided now was a good time to spread a few more words for my match.--
Blackheart: You know I dreamed last night. Something I haven't done in a really long time. Or maybe I just could never remember them because I was so stressed and concerned about other stuff. In my dreams it was like I was at a theater and the movie rolling. Was myself. It was like I left my body and was watching myself. What I was seeing looked like a mess. I was a mess. I saw myself hearing voices. I saw myself as Brian Lee. I saw myself as Oni. You know what else I saw. I saw the beating I got from Shadow. I guess that's why when I saw the video today on-line of his comments it struck a nerve.
I realized though I am not angry at Shadow. Heck I also realized after watching Shadow's promo that I am not even really angry at Jason Resurrection. I am really angry at myself. The only way to get rid of that anger is to do some cleaning. I am man enough to admit that I let Shadow down. I did the same thing to him as Jason did to me. I am also man enough to admit that Shadow punished me severely for betraying him. And I have those same intentions for Jason. I haven't forgotten not once though that there is Shadow in the match and there is Scott Lanegan in the match.
So like I said it's time to do some cleaning. August 31st is a new day a new match. Things that happened before with Shadow will not happen again I promise that. Because what's at stake here is important to me. I want that contendership. In my dream I saw that I could never really look my opponents in their eyes with confidence. It's different now though and it's going to be different from here on out. So I know Shadow likes to call himself "The Dark One". He's sadistic, maybe even mad. Well same can definitely be said about Blackheart. I am not going to say it though I am going to prove it. Because in this match no matter who tries to stop me, I am going to get medieval on someone and someones asses.
--I took a deep look into the cameras as if I were staring at my opponents right there in front of me. Staring them deep in their eyes.--
Blackheart: And Blackheart doesn't make idle threats.
--With my last words spoken I tossed a rock into the creek. I finally took a look into the waters and waited for the ripples to clear. When they did I stared at the reflection. I didn't see Oni, I didn't see Brian Lee or any other personalities. I saw myself. For the first time in a long time I saw myself. I nodded in approval and stood back up to exit the scene.--